Sorry have not updated this is awhile. Things have been crazy. Doctors really don't know what is going on with me.... They think it is just stress of the job. Layoffs are happening daily. Really need to trust God and let it happen if it is going to happen. But is really touch. This not feeling good is really cutting into my hunting time too.
Ash is coming home this week. I am excited to see her. It really has been quiet around the house. I live in a big 100+ year on farm house... Now just me, wife and two dogs, two cats, two llamas...Cats and llamas live outside.
Panic attacks seem to come about once every two days or so. Never can tell when it is going to happen. All of a sudden my inside just go nuts... and then I have a couple of hours of pain. Doctor has given me another medicine... #5... to try. Seems to make the pain not last as long...which is a good thing. Have not been able to sleep much in the last couple of days... Seems to be happening in late evening... then I end up being up for the rest of the nite...
Really am thinking about life. Is the big bucks of my current job worth it? Is my health worth it? Going to talk to accountant... What is takes to start my own home business. I really like working with dogs. Have several friends that are leaving their dogs with me for the Thanksgiving weekend. Keep wondering if I just should take that leap of faith and just do it. Praying a lot for direction.
Went to Leavensworth, Washington this past weekend. Had a great time with all the family... except when I was in pain... which was both nites. Bummer. Beautiful place. It is patterned after a German town (Bavaria). Condos were great. Was really cold tho... low 20's at night 30's during the day. Guess Winter has really started to arrive.
Hunting....
This being Thanksgiving week... a Lot of things planned... Ash is coming home on Wednesday. Pizza with Dave at his school. Thursday having Dinner with Ritt and Joanne. Friday at our house for Turkey and stuffing with Dave and Karen... Ashley back on the plane to Spokane Sunday afternoon. Hopefully the medicine will kick in my then and I will feel like eating. SO... Hunting might or might not happen... Really going to try and get out...
Good news... I have lost 26 pounds in the 2 months.... Not exactly the best way to loose weight... I would not recommend it.
Got email of encouragement from Donna... Really thinks I need to work for the Y. Going to check it out.
My wonderful loving wife has been really great. Really concerned about me... But like me really doesn't know what to do. She is great. I only wish I would not keep her awake so much at night. I know she needs her sleep. My trashing around really doesn't help. So I get up and go down stairs as not to keep her awake. But after 28 years... I miss not having her beside me... She is my best friend in the world. I sometime wonder how lucky I am that God brought her into my life. She keep telling me.... Give it to God. I really need to listen to her... I love you! My best friend!
Hope you all have a great Turkey day.... I am going too! (positive thinking)
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